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I'm Nicole. I love music and love to write, especially role play in my games. I adore reading and taking long baths. I hate work. I work at K-Mart. I go to school at Alvernia College in Reading, PA

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December 20th]
This is just a post for the sake of a post. You gotta love those kinds of posts.

I really have nothing to update about, that's probably why I came into this journal, cause I just wanted to spam your f-lists. Yay me!

I start back at K-Mart tomorrow.

November 3rd]
Journal moved to heythere_cole . Add me over there!

November 2nd]
So, I just joined a My Soldier group thing. In a couple of days I should be getting an soldier from Iraq's address or email so that I can become something like a penpal with him/her. It sounds really interesting. And it goes right along with the play this semester. 9 Parts of Desire. Look it up, it's pretty good.

If anyone else is interested, here's the link:

October 25th]
My concentration level has gone from here *opens arms wide* to here: NONE!

My patience level. Same thing. None.

I don't want to talk to anyone for fear of snapping at them or saying something wrong. I'm just angry.

It's a bunch of things that just set me off today. And all I want to do is go to sleep. I can't even do that. I have to leave for practice in 15 minutes. If anyone asks me for a line, I will kill them all. We open one week from tomorrow. You would think they should know their lines and be off book by now. We start complete run throughs today. SHOOT ME!

My mom is getting back together with her fucking ass boyfriend who she knew was cheating on her. And now, she suddenly knows that he wasn't. Fuck him! That's all I have to say about it. First he tries to throw himself off a bridge and gets put into the hospital for a week. You told me for months that nothing was going to happen between you two. Then you start dating and suddenly, he's my fucking father. Fuck that! He can be your boyfriend, but don't expect me to like him. Your asking to much if you ask that. I don't want to have anything to do with you if you continue to date him.

And other things that I wont get into for specific reasons which I will also not get into. But I'm pissed. And writing this didn't help any. Only made it worse.

!! I can't even listen to music to calm me down because I want to hit the computer and throw it out my window at all the little kids who are trick-or-treating at the school. AHHH! Fuck life!
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Shamelessly stolen [Thursday
October 19th]
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. No cheating, b'atch!!!

Opening Credits: "Fellowship of the Nerd" Fall Out Boy
How fitting?

Waking Up: "Kiss and Control" AFI
First Day At School: "Divine Intervention" Taking Back Sunday

Falling In Love: I don't think Dane Cook ("Struck By a Vehicle") counts.. so "Clumsy Heart" The Matches

Breaking Up: "Backs Against the Wall" Valencia.

Prom: "The Gap Effect" Remember Maine

Life's Okay: "Speakers Blown" Hit The Lights.

Mental Breakdown: "The Interview" AFI

Driving: "A Town Called Hypocrisy" Lost Prophets. Except it came up as Fellowship of the Nerd again, the first time... hm..

Flashback: "Graduation Day" Gym Class Heroes

Getting Back: "The Church of Hot Addiction" Cobra Starship

Wedding Scene: "Spin" Taking Back Sunday

Birth of Child: "The New Transmission" Lostprophets
I got six more Dane Cook's before comming up with an actual song, the first one being "My Son Optimus Prime" Lol

Final Battle: "Phantom of the Opera" Blink 182

Death Scene: "The Space Between" Valencia

Funeral Song: "Lazier than Furniture" The Matches

End Credits: "Orleans RIP" Meriwether

October 18th]
I feel like I'm going to die. It is not the most pleasant feeling in the world.

October 3rd]
You know what? You wanna talk shit on me? That's fine. I really don't care. What I do care about is you talking shit on me infront of my friends, the people I hang out with everyday and that it gets back to me. You don't like me? That's fine, cause you know what? I don't like you either. Just don't let me catch you talking shit about me again.

You wanna know something else? My fist really likes the idea of getting nice and acquanted with your face, specifically, your nose. So watch out, because you are about to spend two hours in the same room with me. And I will make your life a living hell. Because I don't like you, probably more then you can't stand me. Be warned.

Oh, and I totally got yelled at today because my teacher could hear my ipod over the sound of the air conditioner in the room. Well, uh.. the ipod volume was lowered before I came into the class, I could hear you just fine with it on, class wasn't started and the air conditioner wasn't on. So there. But it's all cool, cause it was kind of loud, I'm just used to it. And she's my music therapy teacher, which means she knows what she's talking about when she tells me to turn it down.

And now.. on to more happy things, a QUIZ!

Shamelessly stolen quizCollapse )

September 27th]
So, I totally missed class today and didn't even do it on purpose! I would have sworn it started at 1:00 but it really started at 12:30. And like the only reason that really sucks is because I have the same teacher for two classes on tuesdays.

So when I went to her second class, I sort of made up, but didn't really make up just elaborated a story to tell her. It made her laugh.. and it made Dan laugh too. This is what I told her:

"So, the reason I didn't show up to class today was because I completely thought it was Monday. And I have a 1:00 class on Mondays. So instead of comming to the correct class, I went to the wrong class and when no one showed up, I just figured that the class was cancelled and I missed the message. So I went back to my room, all happy that I didn't have any classes, and around rolled 3:30 when one of my friends was like 'Don't you have class now?' and I was like, 'no, it's monday.' And she was like, 'No, it's tuesday'. So I went and checked and it really was tuesday. So I missed your class."

..And the sad thing, I said it just like that too cause I've been totally out of it the past couple of days. Been really giggly toooo. Might be because I'm only getting like.. a few hours of sleep a night and I'm not comfortable when I sleep. Mmhmm

September 22nd]

Let me tell you, I don't care about your cheerleading or gymnastic days. I don't care what your ex-boyfriend said to you through AIM. I don't care that you like country music. I don't care that your friends here are similar to your friends at home.

I also don't care what kind of music you listen to or that you talk REALLY loud.. ALL THE FREAKIN TIME!

What I do care about though is that my head feels like it is going to split from the inside out and you are playing your music really loud! And that you are talking to the people in your room even louder then that. If I have my TV on, and I can't here it over you or your radio, that is a problem. Same goes for my laptop, which is sitting on my lap and is on as loud as it goes. If I can't hear that over your stupid cheerleading ass, there is a problem!

Now, usually I wouldn't care because you listen to half way decent music sometimes and hey, I like gospip, especially about people I don't know. BUT! When you know I am over here trying to sleep because I don't feel good, be the nice person that I know you are and SHUT UP and TURN YOUR MUSIC DOWN! It's not that hard to do, I know you are capable of it.

Now leave and go get drunk since you refuse to go home this weekend. You've been drunk every other day this week so LEAVE and take your friends with you so that I can sleep, or at least hear my TV.


September 10th]
Because I'm a horrible stealer and bored out of my mind.Collapse )

September 2nd]
I hate my life. Can I just say that for starters?

Ok, so reasons?

Supposed to go to the My Chem/TBS concert on Saturday (today?) and of course something happens to make that not possible. Want to know what that is? Of course you do.

So, it's raining all day today because of that stupid hurricane thats supposed to be comming. I go home from Reading to pick up Kitty and Gin for the concert. So were like.. not far away from the school at all and guess what happens?

We fucking HYDROPLANE and I lost control of my new car that I only just got two or three weeks ago. We hit the gaurd barrier thing, spin, hit it again, spin, hit it again and end up on the opposite side of the road facing the opposite direction of where we are supposed to be going. Me? Can't remember a thing of it except heading for a tree. I sort of remember my CDs flying everywhere, and bouncing off the barrier? But yeah. Everyone is fine. My back and arm hurt a little, and Kitty has a headache but she didn't hit her head on anything, and Gin's neck hurts cause she was all sorts of bouncing around in the back of the car.

So? My new car? (Except not really new cause it was a '95) has been totalled and towed off to some place where I will probably never see it again. Poor car.

...I want to go home.

September 1st]
Because I am a horrible idea stealer, here is my school address. Send me stuff cause I love you all. And I know you all love me. Written letters are so much cooler then e-mails or replies to journals, cause you know someone cares enough to take the time to write you something. Isn't that such a nice thought?

*couch* Anyways, here it is:

Nicole Bell
Alvernia College
Clare Hall
Mailbox # 2034
846 Greenway Terrace
Reading, PA 19607

I don't care what you write me about, random stuff is totally cool. And whoever sends me totally awesome care packages gets something cool! Don't know what. But something cool!

August 21st]
Tonight was amazing. I think it might be in my top five concerts. Don't know what the other four would be right now, but that definetly qualifies. So, it starts off with the FREE Cute is What We Aim For acoustic show at Tower Records. And then we move on to the many hour wait around the corner from the TLA. Another hour wait once we finally got inside.

First up was This Providence. They were a lot better then I thought they would have been. I don't know ANYTHING by them.

THEN! Hit the Lights. Amazing. I only knew one full song and parts of other songs. Bodybag was amazing. And the fact that I felt my ankle snap a couple of times in ways that they shouldn't snap, it was pretty cool.

And then.. And then! Cute Is What We Aim For! Beyond amazing. Except for the fact that I kept getting mouthfuls of hair. That wasn't cool.

Got out after that and went to look for the Merch tables. Bought two Hit The Light shirts. And it was only because their Merch Guy was the best! I gave him a four dollar tip because I liked him. He was amazing. AND! I got him to sign my arm. And now it won't come off.

Shaant signed my arm and so did Omar. And I got pictures with all of the above.

Back to school next Sunday. And also the Valencia concert three hours away. Grr, we're crazy for doing it. And then after that, Taking Back Sunday and My Chemical Romance. Then maybe some Hellogoobye and some more Valencia. And THEN! PLACEBO!!!!

August 15th]
So I made Gin update earlier, I might as well force myself to update about nothing inparticular.

Mom is dating some guy named Ken. So not cool. He's a little wierd and his emotional state is worse then mine can be. He tried to jump off a bridge! I've never gone that far! But he knows how to play the drums, so thats cool.

Um.. CIWWAF this Sunday... Twice! Fun stuff comming up. Wonder if Shaant remembers Gin's William knock knock joke. Would be priceless if he did. And.. The next sunday I go back to school. Kitty's going with, and then we drive to go see Valencia in South Hackensak. My little car is going to combust or something. Hella lot of driving that day. Hour and a half to get to school. Three hours to the concert. Three hours back to school. Class the next day. Shoot me, please. And then the next weekend, Kitty comes back AGAIN with Leo so that we can go to a concert in Allentown. Taking Back Sunday and My Chemical Romance. That's going to be one hell of a concert.

And then after that I have nothing else planned. Except work. Lots of work so that I can pay the car insurance on my new car that I got on Friday. Yay for new and ugly cars that drive me insane. I couldn't get the starter working the other day. Had to call my mom, make her come and attempt to start it. She couldn't. It took 45 minutes after work that day to get me home. How not fun, especially when you work only 7 minutes away from your house. But now I found the trick and can get it started all the time! There is absolutely nothing wrong with it either. Thats awesome cause the first car was a wreck.

And... thats it, I think.

August 3rd]
SO! Warped Tour! So much better then last year in my opinion. My ears are still ringing. And I was sort of up close for most of the shows. I even got a hug from Travis from GCH and a picture with.. Jeremy? from We Are the Fury?

But anyways. We get there and have an hour or so to kill before our first show comes on. The Academy Is. I almost died and had to get out. But I had a better view of everything from where I moved to. It was amazing.

And then there was more walking around. And we got to listen to Hey Chris talk for a little bit. And some other shows. I may be missing some, but it was basically:
We Are the Fury
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Motion City Soundtrack.

I'm pretty sure that there was some other group, but I can't remember right now. Anyway. Cartel's music isn't really good, but their fans are amazing. There was some crazy pushing and crowd surfing. I don't know how many times I got hit in the head just during that set.

Valencie was amazing too. Though I only knew some of the words to one song. The last one. I baught their CD, so it's all good. At least I did better then the first time I'd seen them when I didn't even know who they were and didn't know any of the words to any of the songs.

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus was cool. We were sitting in one of the seats some ways back then me and Gin decided to join the crowd infront of the stage. Amazingly, we made it from where we were through half the people there to get infront of the stage in less then one song. I stayed for 2 and a half and then got back out again.

Hellogoodbye was alright. We missed the first couple of minute and had to stand on the tables so that we could pretend to be able to see. I couldn't see anything.

Motion City Soundtrack was amazing. There was more crazy moshing and crowd surfing. Somehow I ended up five rows from the stage, don't know how I managed to do that, since I had decided not to jump in. I wanted to stay back and try and get cool and not killed. But it was fun anyways.

So Gin does the most amazing impression of Adam Lazara (sp?) and gets a shout out and applause. It was fun.

I bought a crap load of stuff that I really didn't need. Like four tee-shirts and three CDs. But I came home with enough stuff to kill someone. Stuff includes four condoms which I gave to my mom. Scary, she kept them and put them in her room. Then she preceded to tell me that she is unofficially dating Ken, and that they are having sex. Has sex the other night when I was at Gin's house. Something that a daughter should never know about her mother. Though she did tell me that it was okay to have sex and that I should. *shakes head*
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epitherials NOT epithermals [Saturday
July 29th]
So, John Tucker Must Die was pretty much amazing if only because of the previews and the part where John totally pulls a Hayden stunt. And Hayden freak-outs totally make the whole movie.

It's always John this and John that. You just don't appreciate me. *tears and stomps*

July 26th]


So, yeah, William is performing 7 Weeks with the Grey People at Warped Tour. Don't know why that made me so gosh darn excited. But it did! And I'm happy.

I'm in an extremely good mood today despite the fact that I have work from 5:30 till 10. People should come visit me and hang out.

Mum went down the shore for the night! Yay for me!


Edit: Check out my new amazing icon!

July 25th]
I think I need a break. From everything. All I want to do is put everything behind me and get out. And I can't even tell you why I feel this way. Everything is just becoming to overwhelming and I feel like I'm going to break sometimes. I try my hardest, and while I have moments of happiness, I'm more and more falling back into how things were while I was in school. Everything is getting put off, I don't want to do anything, but I can't sit around and do nothing. I'm separating myself from everything that I know, while at the same time, just trying to get closer. I feel like the worlds biggest contradiction. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. And I don't want to feel this way anymore.

I hate that things don't just come naturally to me. I feel like I'm trying too hard and everyone knows it. I'm changing and I'm not to sure I'm happy with myself anymore. And I don't know what I have to do to be me again. It's like someone else is completely taking over inside of me and there is no way that I can stop it. I just want to be me. I want to be happy with myself. I want to know what I want, what I want to do. I don't want to be stuck in the same monotonous routines everyday for the rest of my life. I want to find something that makes me happy. I want to be able to speak out for what I want, and speak up for myself. I don't want to be afraid around new people.

I want to not be afraid anymore. Of this. Of that. Of trying new things. Of learning.

Of life.

July 25th]
So, yeah, not been in a good mood all day.

...So I downloaded 11 videos! Yay me!

Now I feel better.

Edit: Make that 15 videos, 7 CDs, 11 new songs and drew two pictures that I coloured!

July 24th]
You know it's time to go back to school when your mom starts to piss you off everyday for no reason.

Definetly time to leave.

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